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[Jan. 26th, 2007|11:09 pm] |
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I'm leaving for California at 6:55 a.m. tomorrow morning. I was so excited for this trip but now I'm not excited at all. |
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| the short story long... |
[Jan. 20th, 2007|11:45 pm] |
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| |  loved | ] |
| [ | music |
| | shakespears's sister-the smiths | ] |
wow.
I haven't written in this thing since I moved to North Carolina. I love it there. I met an awesome boy named Dylan Kohl. I am crazy about him. He is from Seattle and loves climbing. I havent seen him for a month and a half but I get to see him next week in California. I'm going climbing in Joshua Tree for the week and then to Utah and back to North Carolina. I love my life.
my heart is on the west coast.
And my birthday was yesterday. The big 2-4. |
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| on easier roads... |
[Jul. 27th, 2006|12:08 am] |
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| |  busy | ] |
Hey I'm moving in two weeks again...surprise surprise.
Hendersonville, NC will be my new hometown. 30 minutes west of Ashevile.
Home of Chimney Rock.
Climb on. |
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| there's no point in wondering... |
[Jul. 5th, 2006|01:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  good | ] |
I have been working at Bushy Hill for this week. Its been good times. I love working outdoors. I need to make money though. The debt is accumulating, but I have an interview at EMS today. I hope I get the job. I really need it.
Come August 18th I will be living in Hendersonville, North Carolina for who knows how long. So I'll be leaving again. Part of me wishes I was going back to California, or maybe just the west in general, but I'm going to try this out because its a good job and is a little closer to home. I miss good Mexican food.
I love climbing. This job allows me to climb every weekend cause its a big deal in that area of NC.
Thats about it. |
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| wait on... |
[Jul. 3rd, 2006|11:44 pm] |
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| |  exhausted | ] |
I asked her would she'd marry me,
she said it could never be,
For she had got another,
and he was of at sea.
She said that she would wait for him
and faithful she would remain.
Waiting for her sailor,
By the lakes of Pontchartrain. |
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| and the sun rises in the east... |
[Jun. 22nd, 2006|06:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth-Coheed and Cambria | ] |
I'll be the wind in your leaves
The warmth of the sun
I'm always drawing your colours
I'm always tracing your footsteps
I am having a really good day today. I woke up early without my alarm and felt well rested. Keith picked me up at 10 and we went to EMS to get his climbing stuff. On the way we disussed climbing Mt. Washington (yes!). EMS was have a crazy summer sale and I got a pair of mountain hardware pants for $37! I love them. Then I went home, finished cleaning my room and started painting a picture of the black eyed susans steve gave me. Then I checked my email and Jeff had emailed me and that made me happy beyond words. Then I ran to StoSho to get some groceries and they had tofutti vegan pizza! So I'm about to eat that.
Climbing tomorrow and then wrestling night with Kim. I love being home right now. |
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| fighting for an ideal i know nothing about... |
[Jun. 13th, 2006|05:28 pm] |
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| | gloomy | ] |
After 8 long days I arrived home Sunday night to the beautiful state of Connecticut. Nothing much has changed accept I don't have 3 jobs here, I actually don't even have one. I have only been home for two days and I am already going crazy. I applied for some jobs yesterday. I really want to work at EMS but I am going to go stop by ION and see if I can get a job at the restaurant. Ha, they are both acronyms. Anyways...
I wish being home was more exciting. I am going to hike sleeping giant Thursday I think, climbing in Wallingford tomorrow night with Keith. I miss Jeff and wish he was home so I could spend time with him.
I haven't heard back from the job I applied for in North Carolina which makes me nervous. I need that job. I also am thinking about getting my WFR this summer which allow for me to get a slew of other outdoor jobs and also allow me to lead trips. |
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| that ain't no life... |
[May. 30th, 2006|05:22 pm] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | fairweather-motion sickness | ] |
"You work a 60 hour week and see one hour sunlight..."
I recently came into possession of a girly purse. Yes, a purse. My friend Kamryn was getting rid of it so I decided to use it. Its small and grayish purple. It looks like a bag Darleen would use. I kind of like it...I have spent the last 6 months in dirty clothes, hiking boots, and hanging out with 12 year olds. I am ready to hang out with people I do not work with and dress like an actual person. I cut my bangs again. I prolly should have let them grow out. But they look ok.
3 more days in Southern California. I had another interview with a place in North Carolina. Its looking like I might be spending next fall down south. Not so bad, good weather and good climbing. Beyond that - no clue. Maybe marriage, haha.
I miss Steven D. Manning. I am eating fakie bologna and cheese (vegan..mmm). I need to go clean the bathroom and figure out my life. |
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| breathing lessons... |
[May. 23rd, 2006|01:18 am] |
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| |  drained | ] |
Today I lost my carkeys. The doors are locked and I don't think a spare key exists. I am about to cry. I just want to come home. |
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| we are nowhere and its now... |
[May. 17th, 2006|03:11 pm] |
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| | busy | ] |
California in Short
So I have spent the past 5 months living in Southern California. It has been amazing for the most part. I have had great kids and met some awesome people. I have also had tough weeks where I thought I wasn't going to make it through and met some shitty people. Just like any place you get your mix of the good and the bad. But overall its been an amazing experience. Last week I went on a roadtrip throughout California-Sequoia, Humbolt Redwoods, the Lost Coast, Mendocino County, Santa Cruz, Monteray Bay Aquarium, attempt at the Channel Islands, to the Mojave Desert and then off to Vegas to lose $7. There were many more adventures in there but its just to long to post on here.
I miss home alot. I'll be leaving California on June 3rd and then driving home. I have no plans for the summer which is kind of a bad thing since I am wicked broke. I want to climb alot and go hiking and camping.
I applied for 3 jobs in the fall, 2 in North Carolina and one in Maine. I'm shooting for Maine come September. I really don't feel like working anymore. I have been pretty bummed out the past few days and have just wanted to sleep but instead I have a cabin full of kids and a trail group to deal with...I have to get evaled tommorow too which sucks.
I feel like I want two incredible conflicting lifestyles. I want to travel and work in a bunch of different places and be nomadic never settling down in one place for too long, BUT at the same time I want to fall in love and get married and start a family. I doubt that will ever happen. Oh well.
So yeah. I'll be home soon. I miss you. |
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| i <3 the desert |
[Apr. 30th, 2006|11:31 pm] |
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| |  enthralled | ] |
RED ROCKS, NV
I have seriously fallen in love with the desert. |
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| when the curious girl realizes... |
[Apr. 28th, 2006|11:51 pm] |
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| |  content | ] |
Girls Only Climb Day 2006
Best climbing day yet. Topped out a 5.7, two 5.8s, and a 5.10 at New Jack City with my friends Beth and Hagit. They are both amazing climbers and were lead climbing them all. I can't wait to lead climb. I love it so much. Beth and Hagit were farting so much, it was hilarious.
I really have begun to appreciate what an amazing job/life I have. Southern California really is a magical place. Its so beautiful everywhere. Last weekend Kamryn and I went to Santa Barbara and hiked Gaviota Peak and went in some hot springs. It was amazing. Tommorrow, Joshua Tree-climbing and camping. Best life ever.
In one week Kamryn and I are embarking on a trip throughout California. Mostly national parks, the monteray bay aquarium, SanFran, Santa Cruz...
Kim is coming out on the 2nd and we are driving home. I am really starting to miss home and all my friends. So if you are my friend I miss you.
Ok off to watch Pirahna. |
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| souveniers from better times... |
[Apr. 8th, 2006|03:51 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | morose | ] |
I just said goodbye to Alex forever. I will probably never see him ever again. I know its for the better because he has caused me more heartache in the past 3 months than anyone else I have ever met but that doesn't mean I'm not crying my eyes out in my room right now.
I leave for Guatemala in t-minus 6 hours, but I leave for the airport in one hour cause it takes forever to get there.
One day I'll find the right person. Or I'll just keep getting it wrong. Why am I so sad right now? Someone make it stop. |
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| you're shit. |
[Mar. 28th, 2006|03:39 pm] |
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| |  crushed | ] |
So a girl I work with fucked the boy I'm seeing.
He's a fucking asshole. |
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| 405 south via exit 3b... |
[Mar. 25th, 2006|02:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | excited | ] |
In the library in Santa Monica. Bradford and I are going to Little Saigon, this chinese mall in Westminster today. I'm wicked pumped and I'm going to get some sweet stationary with which to write letters.
I applied for a job on Catalina Island today. I would be teaching snorkeling and marine biology. I really don't know if I'll get it and I don't really know if I want to leave High Trails right yet.
Oh, worst night ever by the way. Drunken phone calls are always the best. I care about him so much but everything about the situation was wrong so I had to end it. I feel like I should feel happier about it but instead I feel miserable. |
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| we'd stay afloat and make the most of everything... |
[Mar. 24th, 2006|08:04 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
On April 8th I am going to Guatemala to see Jeff Kenney. I have been in contact with him since we both departed on our trips. I am so excited to be traveling even if it is only for a week. I don't believe Jeff is ever going to come home for more than a week in life and thats ok. I am happy for him that he has found the right path is life.
As for me, I'm not sure what direction I should travel in now. Coming to California was one of the best decisions I have ever made, but where do I go from here? Should I stay. Should I move somewhere else? Jeff wants me to go back down to central america in june to get my scuba diving certification. He has been getting his and will soon be a dive master, pretty impressive.
I wish things would just fall into my lap and make sense. Complicated situations here have made my head hurt. Same old story the nice guy and the shithead, and we all know what direction I tend to travel in. Someday I will change that. Someday I'll realize what I deserve.
Saxon shore is probably the best band ever. |
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